Hello, friends! Today Mary will tell you her horrible story about how her life ended when she was fourteen. "I have always been prone to diseases, but at the same time, I’ve been an absolutely normal girl. I was moderately diligent, moderately curious, well, I was just ordinary in all the aspects. And my family is good. It includes my dad, mom, and grandmother who lives with us because she’s already old. Of course, sometimes we argue, but still, we all love each other.
From early autumn to late spring, I always have a cold and sneeze like a sick seal. Mom tells that this is because I was born a little premature, which means that I was weak. And as for me, I’m just not lucky.
Also, I love drawing. So, besides the usual school, I also went to art school, where I was making great progress. Once, I even had my own exhibition.
And at the age of 14, I felt a stomach ache during my class at school. The pain was awful, I even had to go to the school nurse. I thought that the problem was in kidneys, I already had this problem several times, but the nurse only looked and immediately diagnosed me with appendicitis.
I woke up in a ward with a huge scar. My crying mom was sitting on the chair for the visitors next to me. But everything is healed quickly on children, so on the third day, my friends and I put all the people in the hospital on the toes with our jokes and laughter, and on the seventh day, I was solemnly discharged.
All the children of our age are being examined by the doctors. This is some kind of special program to detect diseases in advance. It is a useful thing, with its help, one girl from the high school was diagnosed with some kind of heart disease in time, so even the operation was not needed.
The thing is that my blood test showed that I had HIV. Yes, yes, the same HIV which is not a verdict, but still...
According to the law, my test results were announced for the whole class. There is a rule that if you have HIV, you must report about it to the group with which you are interacting. And then it all began.
Absolutely everybody turned away from me. It got to the point that parents of my classmates in a commanding tone forced the headmaster to make me study at home. From the most popular girl in the class who had a plenty of friends, I turned into a castaway with whom no one wanted to deal.
I have never even smoked, although many of my friends have already tried this! But even those who have always been with me were calling me names and did not want to believe that I was not guilty of catching such a disease.
It turned out that my illness resulted from the removal of appendicitis. The problem was in the fact that either the operating table or the scalpels were poorly washed. Anyways, it was after the surgery that the infection was transmitted to my blood. But the hospital denies its guilt completely, although it does not claim that this is impossible. Parents wanted to sue it, but what's the point?
I had to leave the art school too. There, the audience was much smarter, but drawing is such a thing... At any moment, you can cut yourself with a knife or the edge of a sheet and splash blood on a common easel. And HIV is transmitted through blood. In this case, I did not want to risk someone else's health and just left the school myself.
Mom was crying together with me, when even at our common corridor people almost spat at us. Dad was looking for the ways at least to jugulate the disease, if it can’t be cured. It is possible to live with HIV, but with AIDS, there is only one way out and it leads to the cemetery.
In fact, my life ended when I was 14 as I was informed about my diagnosis. For two years now, I have been living like in the vacuum. I can’t do anything that was the part of me before. I do not draw, do not communicate with my friends. Well, I don’t have them anymore.
I’ve recently found an internet forum with the people like me. So I got at least a little way of escaping. We arrange meetings, talk, and hug to support each other. But I have no other social life. I am just 14, and I really want to live! But, unfortunately, I cannot do this anymore because society does not accept people like me, it is afraid of getting infected, as if I will pour my own blood into everyone I meet on purpose.
You know, HIV is really not a verdict. With this diagnosis, you can live for a long time, even without special restrictions. The verdict is a society that gives up on people like me and banishes the infection from its own world.
I ask you to support me with likes and to share this video with your friends. Let as many people as possible know that we are humans as well and we also want to live! Most of us are quite adequate people who do everything to protect others. And it is very painful for us to be outcasts because of the disease. After all, we are not guilty of being infected!
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